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This place is a wonderland for the wandering thoughts of an evil overlord. Psych student, Vegan, Painter.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the sound I heard when I was 9 and my father slammed the front door so hard behind him I swear to god it shook the whole house. For the next 3 years I watched my mother break her teeth on vodka bottles. I think she stopped breathing when he left. I think part of her died. I think he took her heart with him when he walked out. Her chest is empty, just a shattered mess or cracked ribs and depression pills.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s all the blood in the sink. It’s the night that I spent 12 hours in the emergency room waiting to see if my sister was going to be okay, after the boy she loved, told her he didn’t love her anymore. It’s the crying, and the fluorescent lights, and white sneakers and pale faces and shaky breaths and blood. So much blood.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the time that I had to stay up for two days straight with my best friend while she cried and shrieked and threw up on my bedroom floor because her boyfriend fucked his ex. I swear to god she still has tear streaks stained onto her cheeks. I think when you love someone, it never really goes away.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the six weeks we had a substitute in English because our teacher was getting divorced and couldn’t handle getting out of bed. When she came back was smiling. But her hands shook so hard when she held her coffee, you could see that something was broken inside. And sometimes when things break, you can’t fix them. Nothing ever goes back to how it was. I got an A in English that year. I think her head was always spinning too hard to read any essays.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s that I do.

It’s not that I don’t love you. (via facesinthedark)

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In the 1978 film, Pretty Baby, Brooke Shields plays a 12 year old prostitute in the red light district of New Orleans in the early 1900s. She was the same age as the character she portrayed while filming.

In the 1978 film, Pretty Baby, Brooke Shields plays a 12 year old prostitute in the red light district of New Orleans in the early 1900s. She was the same age as the character she portrayed while filming.

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nuclearoverreactor:

Unlikely lines from a cosmetics commercial. 

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comealongfriend:

Found this gif…. now it is my response to everything.

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powerburial:

i’m an activist for men’s frights. i dont think men are afraid often enough. i just want to give them a good scare once in a while. just spook some dudes.

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hakuna-tuh-mater:

Because of Disney, we speak whale, we know the power of family, we don’t underestimate the importance of “body language”, we don’t judge a book by its cover, we want a castle, we believe in destiny, we are there for each other, we like warm hugs, we accept our awkwardness, we are brave.

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